its too late to say you’re sorry, how should i know, why should i care?

 What is there to say when the person who used to understand you the most is now the person who says: I just don’t get you? Silence really does like a cancer grow.
You know when you’re sitting very quietly and your mind goes very still and for five minutes you have nothing to do but [...]

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you’ve been hiding in the shadows…have you forgotten how we used to dream?

Summer is almost over. I’m pre-emptively dreading winter and I spent so much time trying to perfect an end-of-the-summer post that in the end I just gave up. There were too many memories to get down.
The strange thing is, I was terrified of going back, but in a very real sort of way, being there [...]

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i would like to know why your eyes are always just a little bit dead

I miss my old blog. =(

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chiquitita you and i cry but the sun is still in the sky and shining above you, let me hear you sing once more, like you did before, sing a new song, chiquitita

I have decided that there are not enough happifying songs on my itunes. This year I will rectify this situation, armed with limewire and recommendations from friends. So people, some happy songs, please?
My phone is taking on a life of its own. What with making mysterious phone calls to my mother and random ang moh [...]

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“The truth is, there is nothing to be afraid of. It’s just life.”

How do I explain the longing to fly as far from home as possible, and yet stay grounded in where you came from? I want to be away from here and this life and yet I want the things that bring me home again — like the smell of Dove soap, my sunshine infused comforter, [...]

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the hello goodbye plant

I’m off to Ipoh for four days of unabated boredom. If the gods are kind, one of my grandmother’s neighbours will have wireless that I can poach.
Happy Chinese New Year!

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I have to prop up my eyelids with toothpicks to write this post.

He tossed the newspaper towards her.
“Get some perspective.”
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Kiwicousin: This all seems like much more bullshit than its worth.
And indeed, it is. It’s all bullshit. That’s both the tragedy and the ecstasy.

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light up, light up, as if you have a choice….

Freshly showered and wearing a sweater top and shorts in a freezing cold room, tapping away in the dark, old snow patrol songs playing softly, a wealth of friends episodes waiting to be watched.
Sometimes, sometimes, happiness is so close I could cry from the ache of wanting it. Of missing it. And missing you. In [...]

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