“All that exists, exists in the present”
That’s the title of my metaphysics final paper. The belief is called presentism. Everything that exists in the present is real, the past and the future are unreal. Presentism takes the 21st century obsession to ‘live in the now’ to its extremes.
I am attracted to this concept and I [...]
Archive for October, 2008
alis grave nil
Posted in musings on October 29, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
alecto
Posted in scary and damaged on October 27, 2008 | 11 Comments »
I am angry. Deeply angry.
There is no reason behind my anger, no rhyme that it beats to, no target for its destructive power. The only thing I know for sure is that this anger gives me the ability to survive.
It quickens my heartbeat as I pound the treadmill, burns my throat with every shot of [...]
she loves you yeah yeah yeah
Posted in other people's words, wtf posts on October 22, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
The past is our definition. We may strive, with good reason, to escape it or to escape what is bad in it, but we will escape it only by adding something better to it. – Wendell Berry.
I’m listening to The Beatles radio stream on lastfm and it is good.
ramlyburger terakhir di dunia
Posted in musings on October 19, 2008 | 10 Comments »
I can still remember it, the stinging taste of mayo and ketchup oozing over your tongue, hot cheese dripping all over your fingers as you desperately clutch the waxy paper. Salty meat and the acridness of raw onions. I remember midnight burger runs, my sister knocking on my door (lets go buy ramlyburger) and my [...]
this post came out darker than i intended it to
Posted in other people's words, scary and damaged on October 16, 2008 | 5 Comments »
Do you know why I never write letters that are not meant to be sent? It’s because the act has always seemed a little insane to me. I know it’s supposed to be cathartic and healing but the truth is, when I write ‘Dear Person’ at the top of the page, its difficult to pour [...]
my freedom brings me joy.
Posted in cheer up emo kid!, other people's words on October 13, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
But still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing, I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. — Practical Magic.
Some words, when put side by side, make me want to weep for the beauty they imply. Then again, maybe it’s not for their beauty I [...]
i say hey, why you keep screaming at the top of your head?
Posted in other people's words, wtf posts on October 11, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Melbourne never fails to amuse me. Seems as if every time I’m hungover or feeling like a failure or am in the depths of indecision, I walk out and see something that makes me want to laugh. Because it’s true, because it’s ironic, because it takes the mickey out of me.
So today I woke up [...]
drink up, baby down, are you in or are you out?
Posted in scary and damaged on October 2, 2008 | 9 Comments »
I do not believe that people are intentionally deceitful. Some of them, yes, some of the time, definitely. But like someone once wrote to me, we are not assholes because we mean to be, we are assholes because we make mistakes. We misjudge and mishandle our emotions and as a result people get hurt, all [...]
she was always the one
Posted in cheer up emo kid!, other people's words on October 1, 2008 | 4 Comments »
I remember the last time we had a cold-weather barbecue. Standing around, shivering, laughing, trying to figure out how to light the fire. We admitted defeat and trooped back into the warmth of the apartment, standing in the kitchen, pan-frying the meat instead. I remember cold and warmth and light. I was sad and happy [...]
