what the heart wants

I struggle with the concept of home.
Malaysia, Melbourne, Beijing. My mind spins. Each place means different things to me, differently loved but equally special. Only, they all have one thing in common — because I love them all, I can never love them completely.

Loving many people and many places means you are always missing someone [...]

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seven years went under the bridge like time was standing still

In my dreams a storm is coming.
My back is against a wall, except it’s not really a wall, it’s a person whose face I cannot see. Whose smile I remember, whose warmth came and went in real life but in dreams….in dreams he was the wall to my back, the peace to my turmoil, [...]

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breathe just breathe

sometimes i miss being emo

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twenty different kinds of cheese

It’s difficult to explain. As I stroll down the aisles of the cold storage in bsc, I marvel at how many different kinds of cheese there are underneath the hard glass shell of the refrigerator. It makes me want to cry, this abundance of cheese.
I realise that supermarket cheese has taken on a ridiculous poignancy. [...]

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and the brightest lights are reserved for you

Sometimes I miss melbourne so much it makes my heart ache.

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the luxury of colliding landscapes

I spent the last few hours writing chinese characters and now I am seeing double. I swear, the price of learning chinese is ruined eyesight. A lot of frustration. Tearing out of hair. Random bursts of violent temper.
Someone went back to brazil and brought back a suitcase of havaianas, just as mine are dying. [...]

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say something

I would give anything to be back in Melbourne.

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i know this much is true

I’m not a naturally optimistic person. For me, the glass is half-empty, the silver lining looks more like lead and if this is the best of all possible worlds, I don’t see how that’s a good thing. So yeah, really, I’m great to hang out with. =)
But I flew to Adelaide lately, by myself, and [...]

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if you leave, don’t look back

If you leave, don’t leave now
Please don’t take my heart away
Promise me just one more night
Then we’ll go our separate ways
We always had time on our sides
Now it’s fading fast
Every second every moment
We’ve gotta make it last
I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won’t let go at any price
I need you now like I [...]

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let me remind you, the light doesnt blind you at all, it just helps you see…can you see?

Every so often I have to remind myself that life and fate are not like the barter trade. I can’t tell some great cosmos out there that ‘I’ll give you this if you let me stay here in melbourne’ or ‘I would give this up if you let me be happy’. I wish it was [...]

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