A complete deprivation of good coffee and cigarettes has robbed me of my life energy. My limbs melt away into folds of softness, all the air seems to be sucked out of the room and I am left grasping weakly for inspiration that just won’t come.
As usual, the closer it gets to december, the more [...]
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If wishes were the wind…
I would like
- a metabolism that effortlessly burns every calorie I take in instead of a body that conserves every spare scrap of fat as if I was starving it. Which I am most assuredly not.
- the perfect pair of black skinny jeans because I am pretty sure that they don’t [...]
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He talks about finance a lot and he’s mildly obsessed with environmental policy. He gets rowdy when he’s drunk and then passes out on the floor. He sleeps spread-eagled, hand on heart and all over the bed so that I get no space. This thing between us, I don’t know what it’s future will be [...]
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It’s difficult to explain. As I stroll down the aisles of the cold storage in bsc, I marvel at how many different kinds of cheese there are underneath the hard glass shell of the refrigerator. It makes me want to cry, this abundance of cheese.
I realise that supermarket cheese has taken on a ridiculous poignancy. [...]
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It wasn’t that he was a particularly enigmatic or compelling person. He was intelligent and interesting and spoke exceedingly well. But enigmatic? Compelling? No, not really.
His fascination lay in something deeply subjective to me, namely that he was the complete antithesis of everything and everyone I was used to. I was raised by parents who [...]
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Something about the end of semester flurry made me realise it.
I may not have as strong a base here in beijing as I perhaps would have liked, and maybe that’s my fault — ever aware of the possibility of loss I pushed everything and everyone away who did not make it a point to [...]
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I don’t understand people sometimes.
I don’t understand the people who say ‘Long distance relationships can work’ and then go on to cite their own on-going ldrs as examples. I don’t mean to put these people down because they must be doing something right if their still keeping long distance fires alive. God knows that [...]
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They say that being a grown-up means being accountable to people other than yourself. They say that it’s about responsibility and being sensible. That’s why children are allowed to make more mistakes than we are — they don’t know any better.
We do. Maybe not much better, but still better.
And so at a certain point, [...]
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Posted in musings on June 9, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Hello, I have writer’s block.
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I guess it’s true, that it’s the details we remember. Long after the people and their faces have been forgotten or the places we’ve been to have been left behind, it’s the small details that stay with us.
Like curling cigarette smoke against cava’s red walls, where it’s always dim inside even if the day is [...]
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